07 May 2003 - 6:48 p.m.

I'm currently having a minor self-esteem crisis and there is no one around to ease my general crabbiness. I've been in a kind of weird mood all day ... and now, as I get ready for the Slow Kids dinner I am realizing that I hate every item of clothing I own. This is a temporary thing ... or at least a new thing as of about two hours ago. When I was getting dressed this morning, it was a "hmm ... you are not so bad!" kind of day. Now it is a, "We might as well just call this whole 'getting dressed up' thing off and just put a bag on your head" kind of day.

Maybe I am exaggerating just a little bit. Maybe I am just overreacting to the fact that the temperature has dropped so I can't wear the dress I wanted and the only thing that now looks like it is actually made in my size and not for someone significantly larger/smaller than I.

Also, a number of things have recently been brought (re-brought?) to my attention.

1. I am short. Yes. I know this. I'm not sure why people feel the need to bring this up in everyday conversation. It is not like I used to be tall and suddenly shrunk and need to be told how small I am. I am, also, not SO short for a girl ... I am starting to consider that I should constantly wear my very tall shoes. Then people would not feel the need to point out that I am "at least a foot shorter than they are."

2. Apparently, I am a "princess." I am not so pleased with this latest classification. Rishi told me on Monday I was too preppy to be in his cluster for RA next year. I, being shocked by this statement since I know a lot of people who are significantly more preppy than I, brought this up to a friend who said, "well, it's okay. It's just that you're a princess."

3. I am allergic to spring. I am considering drafting the following letter:

Dear Mother Nature,

Before I begin, let me start by saying I really like spring. It's pretty and lovely, etc. Unfortunately, I cannot enjoy spring while outside because I am allergic to it. If you could get rid of all the trees and the grass and the pollens that make me sneeze, I'd appreciate it.

4. People who have known me for a really long time still don't know how to pronounce my last name. I need to have a tutorial before you can be my friend to practice saying my last name.

That's it for now. I'm off to finish getting pretty.

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