31 March 2003 - 12:09 a.m.

I sang last night for the first time in a long time. I was in the practice rooms downstairs playing violin for Alison and her friend Jon Michael ... and I don't even know why, but I started singing. My little voice just liked the room so much. My range was good and big and happy. And I loved the way I sounded. For the first time in such a long time, I loved the sound of my voice bouncing back at me from the walls. The best thing was how effortless everything was last night. I opened my mouth and my high B flat and C were like nothing.

Alison had never heard me really sing before, which is amazing in itself. I think she was surprised ... as a lot of people are ... that I'm so little and my voice is so big in comparison.

Singing is the only time I have really good self-esteem ... I never believe people when they say I'm good at anything else. And wwith singing ... I don't care if they think I'm good at it. It feels so incredible to have so much sound and emotion coming out of me without any sort of third party ... I love my violin because it's such a good filter ... it kind of takes my emotion and is like "here world, see this little tiny part of how Melissa is feeling." Singing is just so raw. Since I have such a small little amount of formal training, all of my singing is raw too. If that makes any sense.

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