27 March 2003 - 4:15 p.m.

I've been extraordinarily sullen for the past two days. I'm not really sure why ... and it's gotten to the point where it's ridiculous. I realized today that I was walking down Comm. Ave with my sunglasses and headphones on, scowling. I think I scared one of the MassPirg survey people. I hate being cross for no good reason. I just feel reidiculous because I've burst into tears for no reason several times today ... leading people inevitably to say "honey! What's wrong?" It's frustrating to not have any sort of concrete answer for them ... just that I'm sad and I'm tired and sick of the silly little stuff I don't want to deal with. I know everyone is sick of all of this ... and I know everyone is sad sometimes and tired ... dunno. This year has just been so bizarre. This semester has made up for so much of the bad stuff from last semester, but I hate that last semester still colours my life at all. I hate that I don't let go of the past .. ever.

I am, however, TERRIBLY excited about this summer. Everyone seems so marvelous and I can't wait to be their friend. Hooray.

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