02 March 2003 - 9:59 a.m.

I worked for 7 hours yesterday. And I have to work for 9 today. And then 8 hours two days in a row at the end of the week ... on top of my 10 hours at the Dean's Office ... and class (which is slightly rearranged this week thanks to upcoming spring break). I'm going to be so ready for spring break. All I am going to do is sleep. I am also going to be so ready to get my paycheck.

I had my interview for my potential summer job, which went well ... I just really really really really want it. A lot. I'm going to be very stormy and cross if I do not get it.

Speaking of stormy and cross, I was in SUCH a terrible mood Friday night at Into the Woods with Jen. 3 hours of orchestra had completely killed my back ... and any positive spirit I could have possibly mustered. Also, the play was good, but REALLY long. So ... I was antsy and cranky. At intermission I was so dramatic and whiny and sarcastic. It was halfway wonderful because I was not TRYING to be nice and cute and happy ... I was just letting myself be how I wanted to be ... and I'm sure we've discussed before that when I'm poochy, I also tend to be slightly funny. I think, though, that I completely and totally terrified Jen's friend Victor ... but such is life.

I've been angsty and annoying myself in general lately. Normally myself esteem plateaus somewhere around 'Slightly Below Normal Self-Esteem,' kind of low but not unbearable. Lately, it has been hovering around 'Scum of the Earth.' It's just my social self-esteem that is so low ... I am convinced that no one wants to be my friend at all. Or at least stupid Melissa is convinced of that. More on that later ... I'm going to try to take a nap before I get ready for work. (Sleeping for 5 hours before I have to work 2-11 ... NOT acceptable.)

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